This is how I feel with my kids lately (not the spending money part...but the rest)...
too much computer time
too much tv time for the kids
not enough one on one interaction
me looking forward to my time at work (away from the kids) a little too much
short cuts with meals
not loving on Emma as much
making over Molly while Emma watches (wishing I would do the same to her)
doing just what I need to do to get by
My beautiful, sweet girls...I am so undeserving of their unconditional love!
I'm in a mom-rut
rut according to Merriam-Webster is defined as, "A fixed, usually boring routine".
I tend to get stuck in this rut every so often. Feeling like a bad mom and having to give myself a little pep talk. The mom-guilt is overwhelming sometimes. It puts a lump in my throat every time the guilt creeps in.
I don't think I will ever measure up to the kind of mom the girls deserve.
...and in steps GRACE. God made my girls full of grace. They were made in His image, right? Full of grace ready to forgive.
I need to be more in the moment, tv off, computer put away, on the floor, with my girls. I don't want them to look back and have memories of a mom who just "watched" them...I want them to remember a mom who pretended with them, read with them, was there for them when they needed me. I don't want to take any time with my kids for granted.
~My sweet Emma and Molly~
to not just watch you play but to play with you
to read to you more
to play eye spy
to get dirty with you
to be there for you always
to show you half the grace you show me
to love you without end.